Writing.

From the moment I wrote my first poem/song/whatever it was, back in 2002, I wrote in secret. I wrote so openly and so honest that I was terrified at even the tiniest chance of someone stumbling upon what i wrote. I hid all of my notebooks and sheets of paper with scribbles on them. I haven’t really changed much from then. I still hold my notebook close to me and never leave it out of my sight as if it held information that could endanger national security.
If I were to record and show everyone my lyrics, my writings, and my music it would be similar to letting someone watch you go to the bathroom, yes, extremely revealing.

I hold everything I write so close to my heart because… it is my heart. on paper. I write out of what I experience and most of the time explain myself much better through writing my thoughts instead of saying them. weird. 

I actually do want others to hear and read what I write, it’s just a bit terrifying I guess. Still to this day there’s really only one person that has actually heard and read just about everything I’ve ever written. I trust them the most apparently. 

So basically.. To know where I’m at, read what I write, but to get to read what I write, I’ve got to let you into where I’m at.. ha. I’m not to sure why I’m writing about this now, just thinking about it I guess. So I figured why not write it.