Hurry up and wait.

“Hurry up and wait.”

Story of my life… But its an important step that is leading me, and has been leading me, towards the exact place that God wants me to be.

It’s funny because sometimes we can (and when I say “we can” I mainly mean myself) tend to wonder why things are going a certain way, usually negative. I mean, I don’t think I’ve ever really wondered.. “ugh why is all this good stuff happening to me?” It’s usually the negative we stop and question. What I’m trying to say is that I’ve noticed doors shutting in my face over and over in the past few months or maybe even years, and I’m starting to understand that it’s not that God doesn’t want these things for me. Obviously I know God has great things in store for me, but rather the doors are shutting because I keep trying to open them. And it’s not as if I am sitting around thinking to myself “how can I undermine Gods work in my life so that I can try to do it myself?” No not at all! I don’t think that and I hope no one thinks that! BUT I know there have been times where I have thought… “hmm this looks like fun, I’m just gonna go for it” without really seeking God’s heart in it and His direction in it. That’s where I shoot myself in the foot.

Patience.

I feel like that word is forever haunting me. I’m pretty glad it is though. I’ve come to understand that the times I’m not patient are the times I try and open the doors on my own. It’s funny too, because I think God lets things happen at times Just to see what I do. Every time it ends the same way. Opportunities disappear, doors close, relationships end etc… Basically, I don’t get what I thought I was going to get. ha. Patience is key. It always has been and I guess my head is just really thick that it takes a few times for me to really understand that. I’m getting it though. God is good. He does want whats best for me. and I’ll wait for as long as I have to for whatever it is He’s got up His sleeve for me.

So one thing I always try to remind myself of is that patience doesn’t really mean you get what you wait for. It also doesn’t mean you complain while you wait. It means you WAIT. So be patient and be faithful because God is patient with you and faithful to you.

I’m pretty much talking to myself, but if this rings true in your heart than run with it.