My brain after midnight.

So it’s been a while since I used tumblr. Since I blogged. Since I’ve written anything down of substance on… well.. anything..

I’ve been “busy”.. 

following Gods direction, building relationships, having 3 jobs, serving at my church alongside the youth pastor trying to make youth happen every Sunday night, having ALL my family be more than 600 miles away, and having most of my closest friends be that same distance as well, paying bills, trying to remember to eat, writing songs, filling up the gas tank… ok. So the list goes on.

That’s a synopsis of my life right now. Fairly normal if you ask me. So what am I getting at. Don’t worry.. there is a point to all this. At least I hope I make a point.

In all the busy-ness of my life. In all the wonderful things I am blessed to do. I find myself almost too busy to enjoy it. Too busy to write (which is crazy for me.) I honestly don’t really know how that is even possible. I honestly love what I do. From leading worship on a Sunday night at youth, to hours of editing pictures on Photoshop, even stacking boxes in the backroom at Target. I love what I do. 

I think somewhere back a few months ago I forgot this little nugget of wisdom. This small little basic principle of life. Something so simple yet so easy to suppress and procrastinate to do….

REST.

I get completely absorbed with having things to do that I forget to stop, think, and rest. I don’t know why but it’s so easy for me to forget that. I think it happens to a lot of us.    We get so caught up with trying to make a life that we forget to live one as well. I don’t want to wake up when I’m 36 and realize I didn’t take full advantage of every day in the past decade. (oh crap… that means I’m 26 now… ok.. I’m gonna throw up real quick.) ……annnnddd I’m back.. anyway.. I want to be busy. Honestly, I like being busy. But I don’t want to be so involved with the go go go of life that I can’t take a moment to breathe and let life run in slow motion. Let every sound around me cease so I can be still and really wait on God.

Maybe this is just me realizing I’m 26 and that life is happening way too fast. Maybe it’s the fact that I feel like I need a holiday right now or I might implode. I’m not sure.. All I know is that God gives me rest (Psalm 62:5) and peace, but only if I let Him. So… I need to do just that.

So take a breather every once in a while. I know I need to. Stop and thank God for all He gives you. Cause it’s quite a bit.

What makes this post ironic is that about 4 or 5 posts ago I said I wanted to write a post about Rest and how busy life can be ….that was in June. HA! Obviously I didn’t get around to it until 6 months later… but, that’s how important REST is! Don’t get caught up.

Just a thought.

“Life is funny. God is wild. Just when you think you know.. You realize you have no idea.”

Thats what was running through my head while I was running tonight.

God likes to keep me on my toes. We have a good relationship. He has a great sense of humour with me. Letting me think I’m in control and then truly show me I’m not. it’s fun.

He also likes to reveal parts about Himself that show His grace, mercy, love, and compassion in my life. Just seeing His evident hand in my life. How could I not love God.

Life.. is.. GOOD.

Wed: schedule appointment for rest.

Time for rest always ends up being a needle in a haystack

I’ve been wanting to write a million things. a million posts. about a million things this week, BUT I just can’t find the time to sit, actually concentrate, and write out my thoughts. funny enough.. one of the posts I want to write is about Rest. the irony is killing me. or is it the lack of rest/breaks? either way. I’m very thankful for the busy, fun, humorous, incredible life God has graced me with. it’s a good one. I’m gonna find time to sit and write thoughts.. I will.. I WILL!! but for now… I’m enjoying all that I have the privilege to be a part of.